From A Distance:-)

I honestly cannot tell when this all began...to this day it still baffles me. You see, I was so convinced about my heart..so convinced was I that I knew I had it under control. For most or all of my life I chose who I fell in love with. I was so deliberate about it that I didn't realise I was a prisoner of my beliefs, fears and misconceptions....then the unthinkable happened. Fate is a widely believed  phenomenon, I for one has lived oblivious to it. In a world where half the time I can't tell exactly what is happening.....so this really was one of those times. However, this hit big and strong, it struck to the core. This was beyond my control.... I couldn't put a hold on this, neither was I able to grasp it. I had tumbled unknowingly into a dungeon that my conscience had decided would never allow a consideration of. I was here, the dungeon too evident and I was helpless. Totally helpless.....my only resolution was perched on the loo seat...in the stillness of my surrounding... Breathing out what had become ingrained in my heart. My emotions so alight with a love I couldn't fathom......this time I had to love from a distance! Oh how it ached.... My hope was its end, one I couldn't decide.

Phoebe

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