Not too long ago it dawned on me that despite all the years I'd been a follower of Christ, I still fought with the possibilities that God would cause to happen. I'd done it all, I had prayed, fasted, 'overnighted' .....I'd done what all fanatics would do for what they believed in. Time and time again , I professed my confidence in my heavenly father.... My faith stirring up such fire in me when I congregated with God's people, everything seemed possible as we worshipped and prayed together. Sometimes in the flash of a moment I dreaded going back to my own little world where I knew I'd have to face those nasty thoughts that questioned my faith and God's surety in keeping his promise.
I still looked up to the heavens and told myself it'd all be OK. I had moments when I was dangerously convinced God would do far beyond what I imagined....I could hear his voice reminding me that he'd promised on oath to himself that he'd keep his word. But.....see I despised that part of my nature that struggled to believe that my creator, the author of my faith cared enough to out do himself on me...I am human, I know that full well....somewhere deep inside it was my insecurities and fears... The assumption and the lie that I wasn't good enough for God to do the unbelievable just for me.
Then!!!!!! I was reminded of
Isaiah 43.. My heart burst with unimaginable joy#assurance# God had made me....I am his and he is determined to outdo himself for me.
Hebrews 6:17 Wherein God, willing more abundantly to shew unto the heirs of promise the immutability of his counsel, confirmed it by an oath:
That's all I needed for that one more push to believe that my Father, lover, creator and friend wouldn't let me down:-) and yes he can and he will outdo himself just for me.
Phoebe
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